March must be my inspiration month. I guess it is the month of Spring & fresh beginnings. When I was looking at my last youtube video that I posted, I noticed that I had restarted my channel in March but stopped due to technical difficulties. But I am back at it again and ready for a new year of gardening adventures! I’ve decided to transition my channel/blog from what it was to a more rough-cut vlog-style journal of my garden and its development. I feel like I truly want every aspect of my life to be in-sync with who I am at my core. I do not have it all together. I make a lot of mistakes or just flat-out fail. I’m flaky but also loyal. I always try again and give everything another go with new knowledge and a fresh perspective.

My favorite discovery of this month has been Harper’s growing interest in the garden. She is becoming more and more invested with what I am doing and it’s given me a lot of joy to be able to share these things with her. I am looking forward to seeing how much she will learn this year if she continues to garden with me.

Up until recently, I have always felt a disconnect from Harper. It’s been this way since she was born and it has created a very difficult mental health environment for myself over the past 3 years. I have never understood why this is and have felt guilty about having felt this way. But since she has started joining me in gardening, I have felt a very strong connection develop. I think it’s made me realize that I am, and never have been, much different than her. She is the unfiltered, unruly, messy, and passionate side of me. The side of me that I work hard to keep in check. I ride with the wind and go with the waves of life and I am peaceful this way. I don’t know why I ever tried to be or do anything different. Watching Harper has made me appreciate all aspects of my journey and myself. I am very grateful for the time in the garden that she has blessed me with.